Who do you want to become?
I’m constantly being asked in college through teachers, professors, and family members what do you want to be? What does life look for you post- college? My rigid answer was always PR in New York or LA for a fashion or beauty company. That was my answer and still may be, but no one ever asks who you want to be. It’s always what. A solid and determined answer.
I’ve recently been forgetting about the pressing question of what I want to be post-college and am asking myself who do I want to become after this bubble of a college world? And my only way to think of that is to think of what mark I want to leave when I leave this world. Because big or small, we’ll all leave a mark and have some impact whether we tried to or not.
So who do I want to become?
I want to be unforgiving in every aspect of my life’s journey. Not in a selfish way, but in a selfless way. One who cares, but doesn’t dwell and eventually let it consume her.
I want to be adventurous. A piece of me has always wanted to fulfill the little- girl in her’s dream to be a journalist. I want to be open-minded to every opportunity that comes my way, whether asked for or not. Just to take it, even if my arms are half-way open to the idea of it.
I want to continue to put my heart into everything I do. Friendship, work, career, writing, even the little things such as opening the door and saying hi to strangers. Because that is when I feel most me. I love the heart I have and never want to diminish or change it for anyone and anything.
At the end of the day, I want to become the person I aspired to be when I was little. I want young Heather to see me and be in total awe of everything I’ve accomplished and how true to myself I’ve stayed.
Like I ended my memoir with that I wrote in my really random creative writing class freshman year:
I come home to myself and the heart I’ve always had and will always have. The home that will stay beating, alive and ceaseless. The home I was born with and will ultimately leave with.
So who I want to become is not about becoming, but about continuing. Continuing to be me no matter where life takes me after this.
-Heather <3