New year & still me.

I have a love-hate relationship with the concept of New Year’s. But even so, there’s something so inspiring about a new year. A new set of 365 days. A re-start. A chance at so many new possibilities and opportunities, all of which you have no idea about right now. All you have is a new year. 2023.

My love of the new year comes from the overwhelming idea of the various possibilities a new year comes with. New people, love, adventures and opportunities. And with that comes loss and hardship. But the beauty of that is working through it and possibly overcoming it in time for the future new year.

2022 made me realize that good things can happen even in a not-so-good year. We reminisce on our past year sometimes calling it “the best year so far”, but what about those years that just weren’t anything special? The years where time just seemed to go by and nothing bad but nothing good happened. You were just living. I can’t move on from those years, they seemed un-finished, somewhat regrettable and stagnant. But, I guess that’s what comes with life, not every moment is going to be remembered, some moments you’re just going to be simply living. And that’s okay.

I think my weariness with the new year stems from everyone throwing around the saying “new year, new me”. For one it’s just so unattainable that in the day from New Year’s eve to new year you’ll become a whole new person with a list full of new goals and in a year’s time you’ll look back and be a whole other person. That just simply can’t happen. And that’s honestly so awesome because who needs to change that much in a year?

So with this new year, set goals, make a list of things you want to achieve, but don’t try and become this unattainable version of yourself wher eyou’ll ultimately just look back on the year and be so sad and dissapointed that you aren’t the person you wanted to become. We’re wasting all this time every new year trying to become something we’ve always dreamed of, but we’re failing to see that we’re perfetcly okay where we are. And every day whether you think you are or not, you’re becoming something different. You’re learning, you’re making mistakes and you’re growing into someone you should be proud of. You’re growing into you.